New tumblr blog

I made another tumblr blog just for random pictures I have taken with my camera~ ^^  I still have my main tumblr which is http://www.forever-a-fantasy.tumblr.com/
my new one  is http://www.fallingfantasy143.tumblr.com/
it would be really great if you could follow them both :) <3

Sleep!

its 4am and i still cant sleep.. why cant i sleep properly lately >< i feel soo wide awake

vampire skull :p

I changed abit of it but cbf finishing it :p im just gonna leave it like this~

Vampire skull

Its not yet complete but slowly getting there xP

Childhood

I was just thinking of this time when I was little and I watched a movie that had faeries in it and it said that the movie was based on a true story.. So after that whenever I left the house I would always look around to try spot them haha but then after a while I came to a realization that faeries arent real and that the story of the movie was based on a true story.. Not the faeries in it -.-
I miss the times when I believed in magical things like that :(

Yaay!

Yaay im soo excited for tomorrow since I have my final exam and then im free!! I can finally get back to drawing and reading all day :) and hanging out with my friends ofcourse ^^ <3

...

So I thought it was going to get better... I really did. I thought I was finally getting away from all this hatred towards myself. But no, it just keeps getting worse and the feeling gets stronger everyday until the limit has been reached. Which it already has. I wish I didn't feel like this all the time... I wish I could take a break. Atleast just ONE single day with no feelings at all would be soo much better than this. I wish I could just change that thing I hate the most about myself.. If I could, I know things wouldn't be the way they are now..
It's not easy fighting the urges to do that thing that I have been craving to do for a long time, that thing I haven't done in a while.. But I cant break. I must try hard and not do it, even though the sensation is incredible.. I dont want my family or people around me to notice it. I dont have anymore lies or answers to the questions I get asked when they see what I have done.
Im soo pathetic.
No one can change the way I feel.
Soo much hatred. Soo many fucked up thoughts.